I’m no good.  Let me put that out there right now, right this instant.  I am absolutely no good.

So I picked up a D90 back in January on something of a whim after I used Lawrence’s D90 during our midwest winter road trip just this last winter.  Just like enlisting into the Air Force, picking up photography has been something of a surprise hit for me.  Something I never thought I’d do somewhat seriously… I am now doing, somewhat seriously.

I love God’s Green Earth.  I love the soil, the sky, the light from the sun, and how the stars peek out of a dark sky on a clear night.  I also think the living things that wander this world are fascinating… trees, animals, and… people.  For the last few months, I’ve ventured out to take pictures of buildings and landscapes… things that don’t require a whole lot of coordination or communication.  This month, however, I decided to step the game up.  I joined a meetup group that organizes glamor photo sessions with models.  I pay a few bucks, and in exchange I get to shoot pictures of models and build a portfolio in a professional studio with guidance from a professional photographer, one Mr. Shad Ramsey of Red Door Photography in Bellevue, KY.  I also get to hang out with other photographers (and sometimes models) in various stages of professional amateurism and hear their stories and experiences.  I’ve been to 2 photo shoots and one instructional session, and boy have I learned.

Hah… you want to hear something funny?  You know what they say, about learning to swim by getting thrown into a pool?  As it was for me joining the Air Force to learn how to earn respect and wisdom from the ground up, so has it been for photography.  My first photo shoot?  Nude models.  3 girls.  My worry going in was that I would somehow not act right, but apparently I had nothing to worry about at all.  Once I did a little bit of research into the glamor discipline of photography, and how models and photographers relate to each other, and realized that it was all very professional, I had no problem going into that studio and behaving.  A nude model, for the time that she is being paid to pose, is simply a prop.  A significant, important prop, but a prop.  I don’t mean this in an objectifying way, but if I want her to put her arm at a certain bend to get a certain shot, then that’s what she will attempt to do… to the degree that she’s comfortable with, of course.  She’s naked because for that particular amount of time, that’s her job.  It’s all very professional (at least the way I’ve seen it done), and no one is treated like crap or disrespected.  Apparently street cred is king, which makes sense.  Models are typically girls, and from what I’ve seen photographers are typically guys, so I guess there’s that dynamic in there that no one wants to get taken out into the woods and “chopped up”, as one model remarked today.  Suffice it to say, when I realized that no one would do anything that would make me uncomfortable and vice versa, I was alright… for the most part.  For my first shoot, I really put myself at the mercy of the model as far as posing went.  I told them to do whatever it is they do, and that I had no idea what I wanted to see out of them while shooting pictures, so they just went for it, giving different looks and trying different poses as I snapped away.  (I’ve got the results posted up somewhere… let me know if you’d like to see them.)  I walked away with a few shots that I’d call mediocre at best; but hey, not bad for a first-ever photo shoot. With models. Whom were nude.

Today’s photo shoot wasn’t nude, and I think I was way more comfortable.  I shot a young girl who was posing for the first time and a model that I worked with during the nude shoot that came back for this one… Jess and Kelly, respectively.  I honestly felt bad for Jess today… she wasn’t nude or anything, but I had a feeling that she was rather uncomfortable modeling… I was wondering to myself what she was even doing there in the first place.  Kelly, on the other hand, is an amazing model… very easy to work with (i.e., “do what you want” yields great results, great for a noob photographer like myself that doesn’t know how to effectively communicate with models yet), and off the set she is quite personable, friendly, and–in my opinion–accessible in a way I wish more women were.  Aside from the models, today I tried one shot where I wanted the “sexy” to come from a display of confidence… unfortunately, I don’t think it worked out because I didn’t really get a chance to talk beforehand with the model in the shot, Jess.  Her timidity really didn’t work for me, because I’m kind of timid myself… so just picture model and photographer, both neophyte, both with no vision on what the final product will look like.  Yeah, I’m not blaming her, because I’m also to blame, in all honesty.  I guess there will always be next time.

And that’s that, that’s what I’ve been up to lately as far as weekend hobbies go.  Now that spring is here, I want to take another go at John Bryan State Park in Yellow Springs and just generally doing all the shit that I’ve been stopping myself from doing.  I met up with Marjie again yesterday, and am going to try to get back into getting into shape, so I’ve got that going as well.  And politics… I’m going to look more into it.  I kind of want to meet the mayor of Dayton and hear how he did it.  But that’s for later.

Cheers.

-TJ

I started dabbling last night with installing a image hoster to a subdomain in my website (rawdump.ockets.net).  I was hoping there would be a quick answer when I found 4images in the Fantastico list in cpanel.  I tried installing it, and the damn thing has practically no support from its own website other than a forum of other confused users.

I’m gonna uninstall 4images.  Guess I’ll have to make my own.

-TJ

I think my picture-takin’ has kind of settled into a routine thing for me.  When I have nothing to do and feel cooped up in the house, I go out and take pictures of places I’ve not seen yet.  When I feel like creating, I go out and shoot pictures.  I’ve been doing this somewhat regularly for the past 3 months and my interest has not waned, so I think it’s time I took it up a notch, from fleeting interest to regular hobby.  And I want to get good at it.

Right now, I think I tend to favor shooting “real” shots.  I don’t like setting up shots, I don’t really like posing or having people pose… I like capturing images as depictions of reality.  I think in my desire for all things true and honest, I would tend to favor these kinds of candid shots showing things and people as they normally are, or as they are in one moment in time.  One thing I’ve been wanting to start was a photojournal of people at work.  Not just my work, but people in the Dayton area at work.  Construction workers, people at my workplace, hospital workers, people at the Skyline Chili place down the street (that I visit probably more often than I should), peons, bosses, etc.  I would like to get shots of the Dayton mayor, shots of people who were laid off, people looking for work, people on their way to interviews… life as it relates to work, which moves the cogs in the American machine.

In different lines of photos, I also like taking pictures of landscapes and nature.  I want to figure out how to make trees and landscape as compelling in my pictures as I see it with my own two eyes–I think this may involve me investing in some photo editing software, both in money and in time spent learning.

On a totally different path, I would like to do some people photography that is definitely “glamourish”, but not overly set-up… I have sentiments on this but I have yet to frame those sentiments into ideas and thoughts… all I know is I feel certain ways about doing certain kinds of photography.  In the interest of my no-holds-barred policy for this blog, I also want to explore “erotic-ish” photography without being downright pornographic or construed as disrespectful of the subject… I think I saw the term “implied nude” in a Meetup group I just joined for glamour photography.  As my close friends know about me, I tend to be kind of skittish around women as it is… as my work acquaintances know me, I like killing multiple birds with one stone (because I like killing birds), and I think taking nice pictures of pretty girls with their consent would be a good way to (A) practice photography, (B) practice dealing with human subjects, (C) practice interacting with women, and (D) practice interacting with attractive and attractive-ish women.

I better go to sleep, tomorrow is a PT day and I have ideas for something I want to do during.

-TJ

Today will be spent cleaning and not getting distracted by the internet… as of the last 2 hours I’m already failing at this.

-TJ

build a friendly input selector w/ remote.  Maybe hack the Wii remote.  Turn a bunch of knobs and hard-to-read LED symbols into logic on TV.

I’m writing this entry from Los Angeles, CA.  <Insert nostalgic reminiscence>

But this time, it’s different.  I don’t know why, but I’m in no rush to do anything.  I’ve decided to treat this time away from work like I should have all the other times I’ve spent away from work… like a vacation.  I wake up, I go running for as long as I want.  Get home, take a shower, and walk down to Larchmont and just sit around reading my book (The Death of American Virtue: Clinton vs. Starr).  All the while, watching random fine females jog by, walk by, etc….  and now for some reason there’s alot more around here than I remember there being before.  I don’t know if I’m just paying more attention or what.  LA used to seem so overweight, but now all the girls are effing hot.  And… I don’t lose my mind or pitch a tent when I talk to them.  Wow.

It’s nice to know that at 29 I’ve come close to the end of puberty.

I’m actually going to miss this place when I go back home.

-TJ

The Death of American Virtue: Clinton vs. Starr

*reads posts from 2003 via wayback machine*

Really, TJ?  Really?  Haha… I guess somethings don’t change.

Life really isn’t all that bad, after all.

Peace and prosperity to all!

-TJ

I just wanted to share this with you: http://www.mylifeisaverage.com.

I like it because reading all the entries makes me realize the world really isn’t as bad off as I hear it is.

-TJ

I woke up today at 6AM, went to work at 9:30AM, and found out at about 10:10 that they closed the base.  In the timeless words of Homer, “Woohoo!”  Homer Simpson, not Homer of Greek literary renown.

I drove around today, and via a circuitous route I wound up at Barnes & Noble next to the mall next to my apartment.  I browsed around for a book that I eventually found out was just released today (The Death of American Virtue: Clinton vs. Starr by Ken Gormley).  I instead bought two books that I thought might be interesting to read based on the reviews on the back of the books… I know, not very good indicators, but indicators that served the purpose well enough of enticing me to spend money to read what they have to say.  They are Moral Politics: How Liberals and Conservatives Think by George Lakoff, and Have You Seen My Country Lately? by Jerry Doyle.  The former written by a UC Berkeley Cognitive Linguistics professor, and the latter by a conservative radio talk show host… trust me when I say that I try, in my own quite possibly misguided ways, to look at truly fair resources for reading material, and when I can’t find it I try to balance out what I hear so that I get more than one side of a story.

Anyway, I got into Moral Politics, and after getting through the first chapter I put the book down and started thinking about my own political aspirations.  I’ve toyed with the thought of running for office some day–most likely when I retire from my current office in 15-20 years.  It’s been in my head for a few years now, and I’ve told it to Law and my Dad.  Since I commissioned, I’ve gotten to be involved in stuff that has required interaction with Congress–I’ve never done anything that I could consider “interacting with C0ngress”.  I’ve never even thought that in my lifetime I’d be doing something that could be considered “interacting with Congress”, let alone doing something now.  Suffice it to say, I’ve realized in this last year that I’m alot closer to Washington than I previously thought.  I also realized this last year that the real power apparently is in the Legislative branch of our Government.  Correct me if I’m wrong, but Laws are made in Congress, both at the Federal and State levels.  Anyway, I’ve narrowed down that if I run for office, nationally I want to be a Congressional representative in either the House or Senate.  Local government, I wouldn’t mind running for State congress or even mayor of a town.  As I understand it, these are full-time obligations but not full-time jobs… so definitely I would have to have a source of income other than being in the government.

Blah blah.  Anyway, I was thinking I should, at some point, start keeping a page of what my platform stances are on today’s issues.  I feel I need to declare as soon as possible what my stances are, as that’s something I want to get on record as early as possible so that if I run for office in the future, I’ll have something to point to.  As my views change, so will the page, with narrative explaining why that view changed.

If my speech betrays a politically naive person, consider this–by education, I’m an engineer, and as a private person I tend not to research things I don’t have much interest in.  My knowledge of things not related to engineering is severely lacking but ask me about possibilities and I’ll talk all day about them.  I’m ultimately not interested in what we can’t do, but what we could do–we as a city, a state, a country, and a human community.  As each day comes and goes and I learn a little bit more about my world and my society, and at some point I realized that to effect the greatest good I’ll have to do something that will test the limits of my capacity to make things happen.  I think that working in the Legislative branch will test these limits, while at the same time I can provide the input that I want to give to the leaders of our Nation (or perhaps become one?).  There’s alot I want to say, and I don’t type or speak fast enough to communicate everything that’s whizzing around in my head.

Anyway, more on this later.  I’m at a B&N, it’s 8:30PM (close to my bed time), snow is still coming down, and I have to eat something still.

-TJ

How Christian Were the Founders? – NYTimes.com.

I’ve been hearing about this for a while, the article is mostly about the Texas public education school board setting the curriculum for the rest of the country’s public education system.

Whatever school my future kids go to, I’ll be sure to supplement their historical information so they get true history, and not the parts that the public school system allows them to see.

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